悠の日々

Taiwan~ wah~~~~~

2011-07-21T09:29:00.006+08:00

This is the 2nd time I go Taiwan~ What makes it diff is that...... THIS one is FREAKING adventurous! Hahahahah XD why would I say so? Here's the story, and it's gonna be long~~

This time I'm on my own, I'm suppose to meet up with another companion at Taichung train station and I'm suppose to be 1 hour earlier then him. So, I took Cathay Pacific from Penang to Hong Kong then Taipei. The flight were great and comfy, even better than MAS~~ Wheee~~ but I wasn't feeling so well though, can't even finish my meal.

This is my yummy meal~ This is the inside~

After I reach Hong Kong, there's little time for me to walk around as the next flight is within an hour, and I have to go through scanning and stuff before I can go to my departure gate.

Took me some time to walk to transfer =.= Checking for departure gate~

There's 80 gates on the 1st floor and 30 gates on 2nd floor, i don't think i can finish walking all of them so I decided to stay put and get myself something to drink. All my water got throw away by the ppl during the luggage scan =.=

This is what I drank, a HK$ 28 pear juice. That's RM14!

Once i got into the plane, here's where the disaster began. The pilot announced that due to bad weather and we are on a queue to wait for departure, for the record, the longest time waited was 1 hour 30 mins. WAH! Whole plane wow together XD. Well, thank goodness is that mine was only delayed 45++ mins almost 1 hour lol and the uncle beside me was very friendly indeed and we had a good conversation so time flies~

In Taipei airport, Terminal 1, the 1st time I've been here. I gotta take bus to THSR station （高铁站）then take 高铁 to Taichung. I Don't know where to buy ticket nor where to wait bus, everything was one by asking~ Taiwan ppl are generally very nice to tourist, so no worries! Te worse thing was MY ROAMING IS NOT WORKING! stupid digi, i thought of getting a Taiwan mobile number but I just don't have the time and thank goodness i didn't do that. Why? coz once I get to the place to wait for buses, the bus was here n I got in just in time. Phew....

Got to THSR station, straight line up and buy ticket, and the next train depart in 3 mins! I ran to try the public phone but failed, there was no instruction telling how to call international number. 2 min left! Ran downstair for the train! Disastrous! My ticket was car 2 seat 16, and I was at car 10 when I reach the train, and is DAMN HELL FAR to car 2!! I ran like crazy with a laptop bag and a big luggage(which is not very heavy hehe), but was not in time to reach car 2 and a nice melody was heard, and i think that's the sound telling you the train is gonna depart~ so i just randomly jump into car 7. The train started the move~ ooooowwwww that was close~ Then I slowly move to my seat.

That's my ticket for the bus and train~ All together NTD 570 (around RM 60) Te time of train was stated in the ticket, I don dare t miss it in case I'm not allowed to ride on the next one.

This is the train~ nice n comfy~ like it better than plane coz I won't get nausea from it ^o^

Good news is the plan here showed me there's public phone on car 2, 4, 6 and 7. So I went to try my luck again~ Car 2, the telephone booth was empty with an sticker saying the pone is not install yet =.= Car 4, same. Car 6 same. Ok last one I'll go. Car 7 SAME! The captain was there and I was informed that ALL phones are not install yet, will have to wait until we reach the station T_T omg.... it's all digi fault, I know my dad is going to worry about me. Well at least I update my fb status saying I've reach HK waiting for transit~

Taichung station, the 1st thing I did was searching for public phone but there no instruction too. OK! let's find an info counter then. And at that moment I check out the station, there stand my dad and another 2 friends! WHEEEEE~~~~ and it turns out I'm 1 hour latter than the companion I said earlier. My dad said this is the last train they'll wait. If I still haven't show up, they'll leave and I'll have to go to the banquet by myself (we had an appointment for dinner that night). He said he doesn't worry me that much coz I had the address and I can go to the banquet by myself

Later, my dear nic told me, my dad and brother phone me MANY TIMES! Asking him whether I know where to meet up, where and how to go. Well, just a lot! I laugh, but it touches my heart, heart warming..... You know, this is family They don't show you in front of you but they really DO care about you.

This is the !st part of my adventure. There's gonna be a part 2 update soon~

死亡

2011-07-13T11:15:00.002+08:00

今日、LAJクラスの友達のお母さんが亡くなった。吃驚した、でも同時に心が悲しいです。いつも笑顔で私たちと一緒にいたの彼は、今、どんな顔してるんだろう。きっとすごっく悲しいだろう。

わたしのスピーチコンテストのスクリプトはこんな感じです。大切の人を失くした時の気持ち、そのせつなさと悲しさ。自分はそんな経験がないですけど、でも経験したくない。いつも家族が亡くしたと考えたとき、涙が流れて、すごっくかなしいです。だから、けいけんしたくないです。でも、何時、その日きっと来ます。なぜなら人生の一部だから。

Today, one of my friends from LAJ class had to go trough his toughest time.His mother passed away....... I was shocked, at the same time sad. The one who always put a smile on his face, how would he be now? I guess, must be very very sad now.

It just like in the script of my speech contest. The feeling when you lost someone important, the sadness and sorrow. I've never had this kind of experience before, but don wan to either. Whenever come to think of anyone from my family passed away, it's extremely sad and I always cried. Therefore, I don wan to go through that. However, one day, i'm sure this will come to me as it is one of the path we must walk in our life.

This is not the 1st time I heard this kind of news. Before this was my best friend, after his father, in few months, his brother left them in an accident. I never found a suitable word to say. All I can do was sms her, and hope that she will be ok, telling her that I'll be with her and she can count on me when she needs me.

I was never good with this kind of incident, not now too. Why? coz there's nothing I can do for them. I feel like leaving them alone i better than being there keep saying things to cheer them. A few words will do, i think.

I hope everything will be ok for him. It will be tough but he will get up, but time is needed. My sincerest condolences to him an his family.

home sweet home..........

2011-07-04T19:03:00.002+08:00

3 more days, I'll be leaving my sweet home going back to penang AGAIN. I really wish to extend this holiday, change my flight ticket and only leave when I want to. Well, we all know that, no matter how long holiday is, it will never be enough. Just use my time to the fullest and enjoy to the max~~

IPS!!!! URGHH!!

2011-06-14T19:10:00.002+08:00

I really really hate those irresponsible people working in ips, how could they always do stuffs last minute? Sending people email n telling you wednesday interview in usm penag, wtf??????

They thought everyone live in penang ah? they thought everyone also rich until can buy any flight ticket to anywhere within a week???? Please lah, I've check every possible way to fly back and it cause me at least RM 800++ !!!! Some more that stupid counter staff tell me earliest date for interview will only be in september, WTF??????

URRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Hope everything will be alright, hope the dean is not as stupid as the staffs working in ips....

点数？

2011-03-29T16:23:00.003+08:00

今日、先生がフォームを出しました。自分が自分のブログに点数（てんすう）をあげてて言ってた。

これは私たち学生にとって、ちょっと難しいです。何故なら、何点にあげるなら好いかなと長い時間考え（かんがえ）ました。

Today sensei gave us a form a ask us to evaluate our own blog. For us, as a student,

it's kind of a tough job. This is because we don't know how many marks should we give ourselves and we had think about it for a long time.

私、自分に高い点数あげました。帰り道に、高すぎかなと思った。何かはじが知らないと思う、でも後悔していない、自分はブログを書くとき本当に頑張ったから。

I gave myself quite a high mark (i think). On the way going home, I was wondering if that it will be too high. Felt like not knowing shame, but I din't regret about that, because I really work hard for writing this blog.

ブログをかぐ前にいつも資料をいっぱい集めて（あつめて）、日本語に訳して、書いた後文法とか助詞とかチェックして。特に英語の歌詞の訳は難しいかった。一つ日本語の授業のポストをかくね、たいてい一日かかる、あるとき二日もかかる。すごく頑張って書いたけど、日本語があまり上手じゃないから、文法と助詞が間違えたこともあるかも。私は私のベストを尽く(つく)した、一生懸命（大げさかな＾＾）ポストを書きました、無念がない～！

Everytime before writing new post, I'll find a lot of information, do translation, and check the grammar and particles. It was difficult especially translating english songs' lyrics. It takes me one day or sometimes 2 to complete a japanese class post. Although I work really hard to write but since my japanese is not very good there might be mistakes in grammar and particles. I've did my very best, with utmost effort (exaggerated? hehe) to write the post, NO REGRETS~!

このブログで、いっぱいのことを学びました、そうしてブログを書くのは楽しいことです。皆もこのブログのために頑張ったと思う。私より苦労したの人もあるかも、先生も大変と思う。皆、お疲れ様でした！

I've learn a lot from this blog, and writing the blog was fun. I think everyone also worked very hard for their blog too. There might be people had a harder time than me, and i think sensei also had a tough time. Everyone, 辛苦了！

It's time to help out!

2011-03-21T14:18:00.005+08:00

I believe everyone knew what had happened in Japan. I believe that everyone would somehow wish that they could help them out in a way. NOW, it's the chance!!!!

Fundraising Event at Penang for Tsunami Victims in Japan

Date: Sunday, 27th March
Time: 11am~6pm
Venue: The Straits Quay (behind Island Plaza), lobby area, ground floor

Details:

Donation

Charity Bazzar (You can bring anything for them to sell there.
You may also be able to find something you want to buy for cheap prices!)
Talks on how to be safe when an earthquake happens, methods of first aid, etc.

Dance performance
Kimono performance
etc.

** Notes from my sensei:

My friends are seeking for stage performers, speakers for the talk and volunteers to help the charity bazzar. If you want to help the event, please contact Ms. Mami (mamidayo@hotmail.com). To publicize the event, help me forward this information to your family and friends.

What are you waiting for??? Let's ask your friends, your family, your lecturers, teachers, neighbours, and your pet, and make it the best fundraising event EVER!

See u on sunday, Strait Quay!

Japan earthquake

2011-03-12T10:57:00.004+08:00

Since yesterday 5pm, I've been watching BBC live news on japan earthquake and tsunami. The most seriously affected area was in the northeast coastal such as Sendai , Iwate ,Miyagi and more. I can't imagine myself being there to withstand this Magnitude 8.9 earthquake then followed by a 10 meters high tsunami wave.......

Tsunami alert was issued to the countries at the pacific basin. Everything happen just in seconds, tsunami sweeps away literally everything, houses, farms, cars, container, EVERYTHING! Fukushima nuclear plant leaking was reported with 1000 times above normal. Total of 2 plants and 5 reactors cooling systems failed and people were evacuated. Some area even caught fire, serious fire and explosion of oil refinery and fire on chemical and natural gases factories. Terrifying...

The numbers of casualties and death are sill increasing. At the moment, 427 dead and 740 missing from BBC, from japan news channel more than 1300 total of death and missing...... It is really hard and heartbroken to see these number increase.

Power supply was off and networks are dead especially in the most affected area. A magnitude 7.6 aftershock happened today and it is not impossible to ave 2nd wave of tsunami. Please god, please let everyone be safe.

What to be happy about is that, advanced tech of japan had saved thousands and millions of life for issuing tsunami alert early. What we can do now, for us that are so far away from there, is pray for there safety and hope everything will be fine...

BBC live news link

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-12709598

Talking to the moon 月と話す

2011-03-08T11:14:00.011+08:00

こんな歌があった、とても悲しくて、寂しくて、それでもなんか美しいと思います。

Bruno Mars　の　Talking to the moon。この歌の主人公（しゅじんこう）は毎晩（まいばん）一人で月と話している、むこうにいるの「貴方」（あなた）も私と話をしていると願っている（ねがっている）。その「貴方」ともう会えない、声（こえ）も届（とど）かないてがわかっているのに、まだそう願っています。

There was this song, very sad and lonely, but I still think it is very beautiful.

Talking to the moon by Bruno Mars. In this song, 'I' am talking to the moon every night , hoping that 'you' are on the other side talking back to 'me'. Although knowing that can't meet 'you' anymore, 'my' voice won't reach 'you' anymore, but "I" still hope so.

そばにいるの人たちを大切にして、家族とか、恋人（こいびと）とか、友達とか、皆（みんな）を大切にして、私はそう思っています。その人たちを失ったなら、相当（そうとう）悲しいだろう。

I felt that, we should appreciate those who are around us, no matter is family, lover or friends. If we lost them or they are no longer with us, wouldn't it be sad?

この歌が好きになったのは、彼氏（かれし）がいつも歌っているから。この歌を聴いたら、いい歌と思いました。ここでみんなと共有する。

I came to love this song because my boyfriend keep singing it. When I go and listen to this song myself, i think it IS a very nice song. Here, I wanted, to share it with everyone. Hope you enjoy listening to it~!

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah I've gone mad
But they don't know what I know
Cause when the sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah They're talking back

Chorus:

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

日本語での説明

私が知っている、あなたが遠くのどこかにいる。

あなたを帰ってほし。近所（きんじょ）のひとは、私がクレイジーだと思う。でも彼らはわかっていない。貴方は私の全て（すべて）

夜のとき、星が私の部屋を明るくして、私は一人で座って月と話して、貴方に届けたい。貴方も向こうで私と話すと望んでいる。それとも、私は一人で座って月と話しているノ馬鹿（ばか）です。

私は有名と思う、町のトピクになった。彼らは私がクレイジーになった。そう、私はクレイジーになった。でも、彼ら私が知っているのことがわかっていない。太陽（たいよう）が沈んだ（しずんだ）とき、誰かがが返事（へんじ）をしているから。そう、彼らが返事をしている。

私の呼ぶ声（よぶこえ）がきこえるか？なぜなら、私毎晩月と話している。まだ貴方に届けてしようしている。

雛祭りと雛人形～

2011-03-07T13:49:00.007+08:00

皆（みな）さん, 雛祭りのことしてますか？知らなくでもいいです、私が、プレゼンテーションでみんなに説明します。

Hi everyone, do you know what is Hinamatsuri? It's ok if you don't know, I'm going to explain to everyone in my presentation.

先ずは雛祭りの意味（いみ）。雛祭りと桃（もも）の花（はな）はちょっと関係（かんけい）があるだ。何故（なぜ）なら3月3日の雛祭りは丁度（ちょうど）桃の花の季節だから。日本人は大体（だいたい）うちで祝いします。一部の地域は神社でお祝

いします、流し雛もします。

First of all is the meaning of Hinamatsuri.Hinamatsuri actually is related to peach blossom. This is because Hinamasturi that is on March 3 is just the time of peach

blossom season. Japanese mostly celebrate in their home.

Some region will celebrate in shrine and have nagashibina.

流し雛

雛祭りは特別な食べ物とお菓子（おかし）があります。雛祭りのとき、最も（もっとも）

重要（じゅうよう）なのは雛人形です。雛人形は雛壇（ひなだん）で飾り（かざり）ます。七段の雛壇は最も大きいのです。

There are some special food and pastry during hinamatsuri. The most important thing during hinamatsuri is Hinaningyou (hina doll). Hina doll are decorated on Hina dan. The 7 tier hina dan is the biggest of all.

一段目：お内裏様（だいりさま）とお雛様（ひなさま）

二段目：三人官女（かんじょ）

三段目：五人囃子（ばやし）

四段目：右大臣（うだいじん）と左大臣（さだいじん）

五段目：仕丁（じちょう）

六と七段：嫁入り（よめいり）の道具（どうぐ）

1st tier: Emperor and Empress

2nd tier : the 3 court ladies (taking care emperor and empress)

3rd tier : the 5 court musicians

4th tier : Minister of right and Minister of left

5t tier : Jichou (three helpers of the emperor and empress)

プレゼンテーションのときはもっと詳しく（くわしく）説明します～楽しみにしてくださ

いね～！よろしくお願いします！

I'll explain in more detail during the presentation, please look forward to it~ Thank

you~!

カレー

2011-02-15T08:35:00.025+08:00

この間、日本のカレーライスつくった　＾＾

Hehe~ I had cooked japanese curry rice few days ago

とてもいい香り（かおり）した、おいしいかった～

つくり方は簡単（かんたん）だ、誰（だれ）でも作れるんだよ！

The aroma is very nice and it's super tasty~

cooking curry rice is very easy, anyone also can cook it!

先ず（まず）は材料（ざいりょう）の用意（ようい）たよ。

First, is the preparation of the ingredients

最も（もっとも）基本（きほん）と簡単のカレーの材料はじゃがいも、にんじん、玉ねぎ、鶏肉

私は鶏肉をいい香りにしたかったから、大蒜（にんにく）よういした。

The most basic and simple ingredients are potato, carrot, onions and chicken

I wanted to make the chicken taste nicer so garlic is in my list too

材料の量（２人分）

じゃがいも..................２個（大）

にんじん.....................２本（小）

玉ねぎ........................１個（大）

鶏胸又はもも肉..........１～２枚

鶏肉は自分が好きの量をいれていいよ、私の場合はもも肉一つと使った。もも肉のほうがおいしいだよ。ほかの材料も自分が食べできるの量で用意してね。

写真のように、すべての材料を一口に切って。肉もね！

Amount of ingredients for 2

2 standard size potatoes

2 small size carrots

1 onion

1 or 2 chicken breast or thigh

It's ok to use any amount of chicken that you wanted. For me, I used one chicken thigh. The thigh will taste nicer. The amount of other ingredients can be change to suit your appetite. Cut all the ingredients into bite siz

e as shown in the picture, including the meat.

カレールーはBayan Lepas のSunshine Squareで買ったの。普通のスパーで買うのはできるだ。二人の分は２ブロックでもう充分だ。でももっと濃縮（のうしゅく）したいなら3ブロックもいいだよ。いくつの辛さ（つらさ）のレベルがあるんだよ！

The curry roux was bought in Sunshine Sqaure Bayan Lepas. You can buy it at any supermarket. 2 blocks is enough for 2 people but if wanted the curry to be more concentrated, you can put in 3 blocks. There are few levels of spiciness available.

じゃ、始まろう～！

Let's start cooking~!

1. 熱した（ねっした）の鍋（なべ）に油（あぶら）をいれって、ニンニクをいれって、金色までに炒め（いため）て。

Put some oil into a preheated pan, then add in the garlic and stir fry until it becomes golden colour.

2. 鶏肉をいれって、中火で表面（ひょうめん）に焼き（やき）色がつくまで焼い（やい）て。肉は半熟（はんじゅく）にしての方がいいと

思う、そうしないと、できたの時肉が硬く（かたく）に成るんかもしれない。

Add the chicken chunks,use medium heat to stir fry until they are browned on the surface. I think it's better to leave the meat half-cooked, if not, the meat might become hard when the curry is done.

3. ジャガイモとにんじんをいれ、よく炒めるだ。玉ねぎも加えて炒め合わせたら、少し塩をいれるんだ。

Add in potatoes and carrot dices and fry. After add in onions, add in a little salt

4. 鍋に水を加え(全ての材料は水に浸しされるまで)。沸騰（ふっとう）したら、あくを取り。材料が柔らかく（やわらかく）なるまで、弱火～中火で煮込み（にこみ）ます。(約20分)

Add water into the pan until all ingredient is soak in the water, When it boils, remove the scum on the surface. Simmer with low to medium heat until all the ingredients are softened. (around 20 minutes)

5. ルウを割り（わり）入れて混ぜます。弱火～中火で煮込み続けて（つづけて）。適当なとろみがつけば、火を止めます。（約20－30分）

Divide the curry roux into small pieces and mix into the ingredients. Continue simmer with low to medium heat. After the curry thicken as you wanted it to be, turn off the fire. (should take around another 20-30minutes to thicken )

出来上がり～！

And..... done! Voila~!

これは私のつくり方だ。ネットで、たくさんのつくり方があるだよ。ココナッツミルクとか、トマトとか、りんごと蜂蜜（はちみつ）とか、いろいろの物を使ったたり、味（あじ）も変わるよ。これは、いわゆるの隠し味（かくしあじ）だ。

This is my way of cooking curry, there are many more ways on the internet. Many different ingredients are use to vary the taste of the curry such as coconut milk, tomato, apple and honey. This is the so-called 'secret ingredient'.

みんなも　私のように　カレーのつくりと食べるかとを　楽しましょう

Hope you enjoy making and eating the curry as much as I do~!

雛祭り～

2011-01-25T12:27:00.005+08:00

昔から雛祭りはとっても面白いと思います、だからプレゼンテーションのトピクは雛祭りにします。インターネットであまり資料がありませんですから、インタビューでしらべます！

Since long time ago, i think that hinamatsuri is very interesting, so I've decide to make this as my presentation topic. As there's not much info on the internet. so I'm gonna do some interview to get more info.

知りたいこと Things wanted to know

～雛人形に付いて調べます research about Hina dolls

　一、人形の意味と配列 The meaning and arrangement of Hina dolls

　二、雛壇の飾り The decoration of Hina Dan

～雛祭りのお祝い Celebration of Hinamatsuri

　一、お祝いしますか？Do you celebrate?

　二、どうやてお祝いしますか？How?

　三、食べ物と式 Food and ceremony

調べる方 Research methods

一、インターネット internet

二、インタビュー interview

三、本を読みます by reading books

どう見せる how to present?

～パワーポイントで見せます Using power point to present

まだいっぱいのことを考えています、だから調べることは変えするかもしれませんです～

There are still a lot to think of, so I might change some of the things i wanted to research on~

Cry Baby....

2011-01-14T14:11:00.019+08:00

今度は歌を紹介します～～

This time introduce song~

これは私が大好きの歌です。このブログのプレイリストにもこの歌があります、でも私はここでこの歌をみんなに紹介したいです～

This is a song I like very much, it's also in the blog's playlist, but I wanted to share this song here with everyone.

この歌は　SEAMO のCry Babyです、クレヨンしんちゃんの映画　「嵐を呼ぶ　歌うケツだけ爆弾！」　のエンヂングです。初めて　聞いてるのときから　とっても　意味深いと思いました。いつも失意の時、悲しいの時聞いてるはね、まるで応援がもらいました、心が励ましをもらった、もう一度自信を持って前にすすむ。

This song is SEAMO's Cry Baby, it's from Crayon Shin-chan: The Storm Called: The Singing Buttocks Bomb the movie's ending. I feel that this is a very meaningful song since the 1st time I've heard it. Whenever I'm down or in despair, hearing this song feel just like being supported, being encouraged deep down inside my heart, and once again head forward with confidence.

ある時は、我慢しなくてもいいです、自分らしくでやればいい。少しだけ自分のほんとの気持ちを出して。いつも我慢して、何でもこらえてのは　よい事じゃありません　とおもいます。人は爆弾みたいです、いつも我慢して、何時が爆発する。だから負担を下ろして、疲れたの心をちょっと休んで、自分を充電して、そうして再び歩いてつつけ～

Sometimes,you don't have to endure, just do it in your way. Show you true feeling a bit! I don't think that to always endure and be patience everytime for anything is not a thing. human are just a like a bomb, if you always endure and keep everything in your heart, I'm sure you're going to explode some day. SO, put down your burden, let your weary heart rest for a while, charge up yourself then once again continue with the path of you life!

歌詞～

夢に向かって　僕必死だった　うまくいかなくて　失敗ばっか
世間の雨は冷たくて　誰にも本音言えなくて
※そう、思えば　いつも僕は　無理に笑ってた
強がってた　気を張ってた　涙こらえてた　
Ｃｒｙ　Ｂaby　今日は我慢せずに　泣いてみな　思いっきり　
洗い流してみれば　素直になれた※
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
何をやっても　何度やっても　思い通りにいかない世の中よ
強がってても　成功はゼロ　うまくいかないの　心不安定よ
そんな時こそ立ち止まり　人目気にせずに泣けばいい
強がりを捨てよう　ありのまま　弱さを見せるのを怖がるな　

悩みないようなあの大空　だっていつも冷静じゃないよな　
雲で覆われる時もあり　晴れかと思えば　時に土砂降り　
僕達と同じ　そうさ泣くこと　恥ずかしい事じゃない　
泣いた後は　そこに　光射す　あの大空のように

（※くり返し）

僕は人生　まだ習いかけ　既にぶち当たってる高い壁
登れよ登れよと焦るだけ　だけどもあるのは　飛べない羽
からかわれても　罵られても　自分自身の手を　信じてみてよ
のらりくらり　たまに歌い　独りですべて背負う事はない

無駄な事など　１つもないのさ
全ての挫折に　意味は沢山あるよ　
だから少しずつ　自分耕し　光輝かす
遠回りしてるようで　これ一番の　僕にとっての　望む近道と信じ

今日も歩いてく　涙の数だけ強くなってく

（※くり返し）

これまで歩いてきたこの道は　固くも強くもない　涙で濡れてばかり
だけども　歩いてきた事は真実だから
誇りに思えるような自分でいよう

上を向けば　青い大空　僕を照らしてた
隣を見れば　いつも誰かが　支えてくれた
Cry Baby　今日は我慢せずに　泣いてみな思いっきり　
流した涙美しい　その涙で伝える僕の意志

（※くり返し）

優しく包んでくれる優しい風　あるから声が響くんだね
いやなことあった時は雨が　洗い流して晴れるんだね

I was desperate heading towards my dream

Things weren't going well, and I was just keep failing
The world's rain is cold, and no one can talk about their real intentions

*When come to think of it, I was always forcing my smiles
I was acting tough, getting tense, holding back the tears
Cry baby, today you doesn't have to hold back, try and cry all your heart out
Once I tried to wash it all away, I was able to be honest to myself *

Whatever I do and however many times I do it, nothing in this world goes like I want it to
Although I act tough, I have zero success; Things don't go well, my heart is uneasy
At this kind of time should stop your pace, just cry out without worrying what others think
Throw the tough act away and just be yourself, don't be scare to show your weakness

That sky that seems like it has no worries although it isn't always calm
There are times it's covered by clouds, when you think it's going to be sunny it rains heavily

It's the same as us; That's right, there's nothing to be ashamed of crying

the light shines in over there after crying, just like that sky

*repeat

I'm still getting used to life, already run into a big wall
Rushing my self to climb it, but what I have is wings that couldn't fly
Even if you're being teased, even if they speak ill you, try believing in your own hands
Just relax, sometimes singing, there's nothing that need to be bear all by yourself

There isn't a single thing that's pointless

There is a ton of meaning in all of the failure
So train yourself little by little, you'll brighten that light up
Although it seems that it is a detour, I believe this is the shortcut I've hope for the most
I'm still walking today; The number of tears alone makes me grow stronger

*repeat

This road that I've walked on thus far is neither firm nor strong,

it's just wet with tears
But the truth is that I walked here,

so just be proud of yourself

When I looked up, the blue sky was shining down on me
When I looked next to me, there's always someone supporting me
Cry baby, Go on and cry with all your might today, without holding back
The tears that you shed are beautiful; You convey my will with those tears

When I think about it that way, I was always forcing my smiles
I was acting tough, getting tense, holding back the tears
Cry baby, today you doesn't have to hold back, try and cry all your heart out
Tears fallen are beautiful, these tear will convey my will.

The wind gently envelops me, and a voice sounds out
When there are things that I don't like, the rain washes them all away and makes it sunny

注目（ちゅうもく）！ATTENTION~!

2011-01-07T18:22:00.015+08:00

チャイニーズオーケストラの演奏会（えんそうかい）！！

来週の金曜日に　USMのチャイニースオーケストラは　よる7時30分に　Dewan Budayaで　演奏会を開催（かいさい）します。今年（ことし）のテーマは　メロディの年代記（ねんだいき）。演奏するの曲は　みんながよくしているクラシックのドラマと映画の曲です。

私、去年（きょねん）の演奏会行きました、テーマは　「伝統（でんとう）がカートゥーンの世界に入る時」。色々のカートゥーンの曲を演奏しました。とっても楽しいかった、演奏もすばらしいです！いかないど後悔（こうかい）するわよ～！（個人の意見です =.=）

でも　今年のポイントは　クラスメートのAlvinさんが　このコンサートで演奏しますよ～　

Alvinさんは　の生（なま）演奏が　聞（き）きたいなら、このチャンス、逃す（のがす）なよ！

これはUSMチャイニースオーケストラのブログです

http://chineseorchestrausm.blogspot.com/

日付（ひづけ）：2010年1月14日　（金曜日）

時間（じかん）：7時30分に始めます

会場（かいじょう）：Dewan Budaya USM

入場料（にゅうじょうりょう）：8 リンギット

一緒に行こう～！

質問（しつもん）とチケット：

Chua Wee Hwang (016-779 6108)
Cho Cheip Chel (016-862 6206

チケットは　Alvinさんから　買いでもいいです～

Chinese Orchestra Concert !!

USM Chinese Orchestra is going to have a concert at Dewan Budaya next friday night. This year's theme is "The Chronicle of Melody". Lots of song from those classic movies and dramas that are well-known by everyone will be perform.

I went to last year's concert, the theme was "When Traditional Bump into Cartoon World" . Songs from various cartoon were performed. The concert was great and I really had fun! You're going to regret if you don't go~! (just a personal opinion =.=)

BUT~~~ this year's main attraction is that, our classmate Alvin will perform in this concert~~~~!!!!

If you want to listen to ALvin's live performance, you must not miss this chance!!!

This is the USM Chinese Orchestra blog

http://chineseorchestrausm.blogspot.com/

Date : 14/1/2010 (Friday)
Time : 7.30pm - 10.30pm
Venue : Dewan Budaya USM
Admission Fee: RM8

Let's go together~!

Enquiries and ticket:
Chua Wee Hwang (016-779 6108)
Cho Cheip Chel (016-862 6206)

You can get ticket from Alvin too~!

はじめまして

2011-01-04T15:52:00.006+08:00

皆(みな)さん～　始（はじ）めまして

私（わたし）はSui Yien（スイイエン）です、漢字（かんじ）は萃云

悠（ゆう）でよんでっもいいです

マレーシア人です

マレーシア科学大学で勉強しています、専門は化学です。

今はもう三年生です、それは最終学年です。

どうぞよろしくお願いします！

私は　日本の音楽（おんがく）や　アニメや　料理や　だいすきです

それだけではない、日本の文化（ぶんか）もうすきです。

日本のことはもっと知りたいです、勉強したい。

このポストは日本語のクラスの宿題（しゅくだい）の一部分（ぶぶん）です。

このブログを使って、日本語をもっと上達（じょうだつ）させたい。

日本語についで、まだたくさんのことが知りませんですから、よろしくね！

このブログで　いろいろなことをみなに紹介（しょうかい）したいです

例えば歌（うた）とか　アニメ　とか　イベント(event)　とか

偶に（たまに）は日本の文化もかきます。

今だけのアイデアです、できるだけおもしろくにします。頑張り（がんばり）ます！

1st japanese class~

2010-12-31T11:04:00.002+08:00

LAJ 300, japanese language level 3, something im looking forward since last sem. Since last sem timetable clash and there's nothing i can do bout it so i couldn't take it. This sem, I definitely gonna take it~! Wish to take 400 too but there's no more time for me~

1st class was amazing, rika sensei is very nice n approachable. She speaks japanese almost all the time in the class n i love it! but I stil can't really make myself to talk in japanese. My hear was beating so fast!! and after i ask her question it beats faster!!!! wow~! I know i got a lot of mistakes wen i speak in japanese coz i din really learn it from books, hmmmmmm maybe 80% is from watching anime for so many years~ hahhaha XD so those grammar thingy, i don really know. Of course, is there's a chance, I would like to learn bout 敬语 too~

we have to write blog and o presentation for the course. Blog~ good chance to make me update my blog more often and learn japanese too. Presentation........ i wonder what kind of topic should i do hmmmm..... think i should learn from sylvia, try to browse more website in japanese. Maybe changing my fb into japanese would be a good idea to start off with~!

Hope everyone would enjoy this lovely japanese class for the whole sem~! Oh, btw, everyone in the class is amazing! They all seems to be very friendly and fun, i have a feeling of this class is going to be great for the rest of the sem~~

taking your own life away....

2010-12-10T12:25:00.002+08:00

Noone as the right to take any life away, not even your own.

This post was written because of a news i saw today. A guy committed suicide because of breaking up with a girl, leaving his father, beloved sister and friends behind. I read a lots of comments in his fb, some saying he is very 伟大, some say he is 傻, 蠢, n some say he is not worth to be pity.

为爱自杀真的那么伟大吗? I don't think so. Maybe you are really in love with this girl, making her ur life, the most important person in the world, everything of yours. BUT, your death only will make her suffer for life, for letting her to bear the guiltiness for the rest of her life. Do you think she'll be touched for the fact tat you die for her because you love her?

AND what about ur family? Those who love you since you were born and take care of you until now. For so many years they never give up on you. Now, you pay them with your death and leaving them eternal sadness and sorrow?

This post IS NOT to critics this guy, but is to ALL PEOPLE THAT THOUGHT OF COMMIT SUICIDE. There's no problem that cannot be solved, your death only will relieve your pain, your own pain. Those who left behind by you will have to clean your mess and the problem is left unsolved, in the end they are the one who suffer.

There was another news on a mother jumping down the building in front of her child who was crying and try to stop her. But, she still jump in the end. Now, what trauma will you think the child will undergo?

THIS is a super selfish act, i would rank it in the 1st place of the most selfish thing to do in the world. AND, it'll only cause yourself to suffer in the end. I'm a Buddhist, and what i know that is, those who commit suicide will not gain a next live, and you'll repeat this act everyday at the time u did it. 百善孝为先，自杀罪最重，自杀后的罪报更苦，要受反复自杀的痛苦，因为四恩未报（四恩指的是父母恩、师长恩、国家恩、众生恩），责任未了，即擅自轻生。I dunno what about Christian, but even not from the view of religion, commit suicide is still not the right ting to do.

There are so many people out there tat is trying so hard to live, to stay alive. They wish to live but they couldn't. (from love live)

Some might say I don have the right to critics other, or I don understand how they feel. everyone have their problem, i never talk bout it doesn't mean I never undergo something like that. I did something wrong and i know my family will be so angry tat they can kill me, an at that time i think i cannot be forgiven ad really tot of jumping down from a building. But i thought of my parents, i can imagine their face and tears when they get this news. Just like in drama, they sure will think that there's nothing cannot be solved as long as i'm alive.

No matter how hard is it now, it'll be over someday. There is always an end to all things, no matter good or bad. You just have to go through the bad and make the good come.

Hope everyone appreciate their own life and take care of those around you.

handsome n gelis~

2010-10-22T15:26:00.003+08:00

Since a year i think, i haven't been to the pool and have a little fish time though i'm not as 'fishy' as SQ~ Me, mei ying, SQ and Gina went for swimming yesterday and i only can say is~ it's a SUPER GREAT DAY~! n with yeu chen as life guard, we truly enjoyed the time being there.

You might wonder why is it call handsome and gelis for this post. Actually it brings out the moment around us in the pool, or i should say, it happens in our daily life too. a super handsome yeng hunky lifeguard was swimming in the pool a bit not very close to us while there is a gang of dark saudi gelis swimming around us. So when u were very into enjoying the handsome swimming in front of u, suddenly the gelis pass by you which is just like few inches from u, and u'll think: wat the.........

Yeu chen is on his own for duty, so~ he is kinda free n i end up chatting with him after 40 mins of swimming. My arms are in super pain, consequence from not exercising for too long~ SO~ the middle of the pool became the gossip spot of us~ By the way, yc said he won't get down from his high chair to save us if we drown~ ohohohoho~~~ n so, sq started practicing how to drown n ask help from yc XD

Oh, and the board XD. Mei ying couldn't swim forward while she is with the board and sq go float all around the pool and almost langgar by a geli~hahahha xD

All in all~ there's so much funny things happen and sq kinda attacked by me for few times, the pool time was great! Muackss to all that make it a good day~!

A fight.....

2010-08-20T01:39:00.002+08:00

Had a kinda big fight with him n I was totally down. I couldn't understand how hard is it to just accompany me in the lab for 2 hours. It's night and there's noone except me an how can he feel nothing and just leave me there alone. Isn't tat accompanying girlfriend is kind of thing that very normal with couple? and it's night ok, night, where the whole school's lab is in total darkness and you are the only human in the whole damn place!

He just couldn't see a point why he need to accompany me, he got nothing to do in my lab and he said many times before that his work cannot be bring out of his office. He thinks there's nothing to be scare about.

Being a girl, u just wanted someone there with u to let u feel safe, u'll never know wat could happen when the next second come.It's night and alone, what do you expect a girl to feel like? I never wanted to say that out: or u really want until something really happens to me then willing to spare your time to accompany me?

He said my words wake him up, he finally stand in my shoe and think from my point of view. I was happy for he finally agree to stay with me in the lab when i need to go back at night. I was just curious, isn't this thing very normal, it's like what a guy, or i should say what a boyfriend should do? You know the place is scary an not safe for her, so you just go and accompany her. but he never link accompany to the scary point and keep asking me "What do u wan me to do then?" ....... or maybe he was just not calm enough to think of that

I'm glad that everything turns out to be fine. A little fight is necessary sometimes, just to let u know more about your other half, and what else you gotta compromise with each other. Just like signing a contract, if both parties agree with the term then then it's a success, if not, just make a new term to please both then. You don't really have to break up everytime if something like this happen right?

.......n night to the world, may all sleep sweetly~

sleep tight~

2010-08-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

It's midnight, 12.30am n i'm still awake. Tomolo suppose to wake up early and got to lab b4 6am. Well, just feel like blog for awhile an move to my comfy bed to have a goo night sleep.

Today, hmmm should be yesterday already, was my little break day from the whole week of lab and stress and a starting point for me to start another crazy non-stop week of fyp lab again until another sunday again. This is life after started my fyp, doesn't seems to have an end to it. Lab work is just endless, whoever come to school can always see my face. I'm here to welcome anyone at anytime~~

A total relax day of 'tidy' up myself. I did my laundry, washed the toilet, clean up the whole room and blah blah blah, felt like accomplished quite load of stuff~~ Now, piano is tuned once again to sound perfectly, sweet melody will be heard again~

Night and sweet dreams~ world~

research day~

2010-06-22T15:07:00.002+08:00

This is interesting and i'm actually looking forward to it very for it. I know it's going to be busy life but since i can be with everyone n i'm very happy with that.

I feel like i have been quite afraid for being alone, i feel like i wanted someone to be with me. I don like being alone, in silence, doing things alone. Of course i know that I can't make someone, anyone to be with me everytime anytime anywhere.

Well, back to research. Since i cannot really go into anything yet, so next week will really make myself stay in the lab whole day d~ the real thing is coming........

Oh well, let's just wait for the time to come.

Holiday?

2010-05-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

This holiday is not going to be easy, i doubt if it is 'holiday'. FYP had marked the starting point n there are SOOOOOO may thesis and journal that i need to read. Since i'm under Prof. Lim here, life is not going to be easy with him(as he told us himself too). He said, if you r think u just wanna do some easy job n get an A or A- then u are definitely looking for the wrong person. He wants his student to learn more than just to complete the FYP to fulfill the 6 units.

Well, look at the bright side, I can lean maybe 100x more than others that's not under him. His postgrad student say: You just gotta get used to his way, you ask him 1 question, he'll ask you 3 back for u to think of it, he will not give u the answer u wat directly.

Beside doing research, I'm making a special present for a friend. This is going to take time too. I hope I can finish it in time since it's already Tuesday now n I'm leaving next Tuesday =.= One more problem is, I'm looking for a present for my dear partner but.......... until today, I still couldn't think of wat can i give him as present...... *headache* I wonder I have enough time to make another paper model.....

Everyone as started their LI and others are stil waiting to go home. Everyone have their path to walk, a way to go. Me, walking with my pace, towards my current target. I wanted to do my best in everything, or else, life seems meaningless when I look back. Wat about u?

Uneasiness

2010-04-24T16:02:00.002+08:00

Just finish my 2nd paper of the final exam but.......... wat is this feeling....?? I can do every single question except one of the 4% question. When I finish the paper I don feel happy at all, felt like, i had something didn't accomplished yet.

Whe I was doing the paper, I was writing non-stop. Everything is in a flow, like a river. Is it because it's a paper taken with seniors? Well, maybe. I keep thinking that the seniors will have a much answer than me. They looked smart and I think they ARE smart. Well, i wrote everything i studied and everything i know.

Have I done my best? I can say, 80%. I studied wat i had n well, i can say i've done everything i can. Just pray and hope it turns out to be well. I don't wan another B- =.=

Let's work hard for the next paper~

A day off

2010-04-21T19:38:00.003+08:00

This always happens to all students i guess, not just me. U know u gotta study but just one day, one day to relax urself a bit to recharge ur tired heart so u can walk further. Not just in study, even daily life.

TOO many things had happened to me and in these 2 weeks. I know he is tired, n i'm a bit too. My final had started, but I still have some problem not solved yet, yet, i can only wait, coz there's nothing can be done. He needs to take a day off everything. Take one day, play games, listen to music, sleep, do whatever u like but study n work. Just one day off, n the next day when u go back on ur path.

Chinese have a saying 吊颈也要吸一口气, means even when u wanna hang urself, u'll still take a breath before that. Don't tense urself, relax a bit. There's nothing that cannot be solved in this world, coz the answer is always depends on YOU. How r u going to tackle this question, how r u going to face it. For me, my problem, time is needed. That's y for now, i can only wait, waiting for an answer and I'll choose my path.

Ok people, let's get back to LIFE.

6th day of sickness

2010-04-16T10:21:00.002+08:00

Today,i'm stil sick, but much more better after taking the medic bought from pharmacy. Some ppl ask me why not go to pusat kesihatan of the campus. I've been there few times d, everytime i get almost the same medicine. The way the give medic, i also know lah~ fever mah paracetamol lol, cough mah give the same orange coloured bottle liquid lol. I really doubt if they r really doing their job as a doctor. The only thing i see is like they just typing thing in pc then tell u, ok u can go to the pharmacy take ur medicine now, bye. Like that i rather go pharmacy buy some efficient medic then.

The pharmacist told me not to study for one or two days so i get enough rest. Get well then study will be more efficient but...... it's already thursday woh...... anyway i did read up a bit but don really know wat am i reading. Then i had a long ap.....

My hands were shivering and i felt weak and i thought it was because of the medic but after i ate my dinner...... then i know i was too hungry. I just realise, i din had much food but just keep drinking water, no wonder i don feel hungry......

HE online quite early today, i'm happy with that coz i need to sleep early. He is coming back today, but will stay in KL for a night. Oh my~ miss him so much leh~ But when he is back, we'll have to face the reality. He seems very tired, din get enough sleep for few days, i guess that's y. He is a early sleeper, not like me, sleeping later n later day by day.....=.= gotta retime myself d.

5th day of 大男人主义-ness

2010-04-15T13:21:00.003+08:00

oh yeah~! today had sushi king RM 2 bonanza, super~!!

oh~ wat a day, woke up at 10-11am like tat then online then out to queensbay with frens and the time when I'm back t's alreay 6pm n settle everything become 7pm d, n i'm tired like hell since still have fever.

it's dinner time but my stomach is still full with sushi, so just left my dinner there untouched. Took a bath, do my laundary and watch a bit of anime waiting for hubby to online. The neighbour grandma told me not to eat rice when i have fever, she say the eat won't go away...... but.... i just ate my dinner tat time =.= wat a shock. Well, a word from the elder is always wise, sometimes u just can't beat the elder's wisdom and experiences with our scientific theories.

And~~~ i waited until 12.30++ then my hubby is online, i was really tired when wait for him coz he said 11.30pm like that he'll on. Well, he miss the last train n went to another station for another train but its station is far away from his hotel n he needed t take a taxi. I thought of sleep while waiting but..... nvm~

A bit not happy with his impatient-ness n indelicate-ness, hai........ i couldn't hear wat he was saying n he ended up shouting at me with that tone, always say my tone is not good now u did it urself and din even say sorry again. And another thing is, why is it that he just never pay attention to wat i wrote to him. HAI.......... i always have to retype wat i wrote at least 3 times then he realise. Plz dear, it's not 1st or 2nd times, it's many many times d. Plz do do something about it.

I ask him: why u never say sorry even if u know u r wrong? He say sorry to his frens n other pl but why everytime come to me he wouldn't do so? Then he just type sorry. I dunno if he just said it coz i ask so or he is really sorry, i don wanna think about it.

Wat the heck is with the man's pride *grrrrr* To all man, u'll regret one day if u keep that pride n hurt ur dearest. How hard is it to say sorry? and why u can say it to others but no to u love ones? Makes me frustrated when it come to ppl with 大男人主义. my dad is like that is like that n HE is like tat. I don wan my future life to be like my parents.

When my dad is not happy, he'll never tell my mum even if she ask bout it. U know wat he answered? Tell u also no use ah. OMG~~ i'm ur wife ok? if u're not going to tell me u don let me share ur burden then just carry them until u can't breath then.

2nd, they never think that they are wrong no matter wat, even if they know, they'll never say sorry, i mean to the ppl close to them. This really makes me mad, as i say just now, keep ur stupid pride if u wanna hurt ur love ones.

I'm not shotting any specific person here~ just generally telling wat found out bout this 大男人主义 men and my anger to them~ Hope my dear won't be like that in the future, i on wanna have a suffering married life.

4th day of 幸福ness~

2010-04-15T11:39:00.002+08:00

Today is his presentation day~ wishing him all da best~ muacks! i know u can do it oh my dear lao gong~! he said he'll find me in the noon in the conference n so i waited as usual~

Wei siang called and said he'll come my house to help shung chin to take the kft to photostat. He ask me y am I so down these few days (i posted a lot of emo status =.=) n i told him is coz of my dear. I told him th story in a very brielfly and he said : when someone ca influence ur emotion like that, now u're happy n the next moment u r down, means that he or she is very important to u, if not u won't feel anything. This is so true! haha

n waited util noon , I'm having headache since morning, I couldn't stand it d but i have to wait him..... i put my status as online n on my volume then have a nap. But, how could I just nap like that? I don wan when he online n i'm sleeping.... so practically, i din rest myself well..... looking a my roomie napping, hai..... so jealous n my head is aching like hell T_T

Then i felt something, my hands and legs...... the feeling of my skin.... ok, confirm d, this is fever.... don care lah, I don wanna miss my sisata hood outing tonight n i wanna say happy birthday to my dear at 12am~~!!
NIGHT IS HERE~~ woohoo~~ sistahood outing~ yeeehaa!
Eugene came to fetch me, then we r on our way to the lair aka transexiana house aka SQ house XD we wait for zx there then went to have dinner together~ Oh~ nice zhu char lol~ then went to B!G tesco for a little shopping n relieve our fully filled stomach haha everyone is full like crazy tat time.

Next stop, starbucks and is online time with my dear~ woohoo~! it's a super fun night, dear seems very happy too and those crazy sista XD super sensitive to camera, lots of poses n i must say.... looks at these camwhore~! HAHAHAHA XD but i love them! But.... 11.55pm starbucks off the electric n..... i couldn't wish my dear exactly on 12am.

SO~ we went back to the nesty and continue my online. He is just so sweet tonight, he's just like a kid doesn't wan to off n keep asking for few minutes more, oh~~ but i know he is very tired d. He showed a lots of pics he took today, they were SUPERB!! The colour are so vivid and the place is a beau! oh my~ i really want to be there with him one day~ The heaven on Earth, it sure is!

It was a great night, with him and the sisters~ (though there are 3 guys with us XD) if i can record all these, how great would it be. I'll jus have to record it with my eyes and brain for now.

Dear~ i love u and happy birthday! Wish u have a great year onwards. I'll be with u for ur next, next next, next next next, next next next next, next next next next next next next next next next next next next birtday as long as u let me to ^o^
love ya~

3rd day of siaoness~

2010-04-15T11:04:00.002+08:00

this morning he said he'll try to be more delicate n ask me to study harder...... hmmmm..... as i expected, no sorry from him. He is 大男人主义 type of guy, n this, know more than anyone. But, u know? The word 'sorry' do make ppl feel better. When u did something wrong, just say sorry wat i so hard about tat?

Today he is going out with his new frens but will stay in conference n have his lunch 1st~ hahaha who would miss free lunch when u can have it~

until today~ wake up in the morning n turn on pc then sign in msn is already a routine, n it's going to be in my daily routine until he is back~! stand by 24 hours to wait for him~ wooho~ sweet hahah XD

I din have my lunch today, tot of saving money n well~ i'm not that hungry anyway~ so just make myself a cup of nestum milo~ yumyum~ until evening then went to Excel to have my dinner n bought a bread. The best record i had ever! Money spent today======== RM3 i'm surprised but a the same time proud of myself~ HOHO~ but i know i can't continue doing this or else i'm going to have nutrient deficiency =.=""

he online quite late tonight, after not long he said he wanted to shut down his pc n out to buy supper..... =.=" wonder y he needs to turn off his laptop.... then..... the trauma come to me....

He did not online back, his last msg was 10.46pm n i waited until 12.15pm he is still not online and the worse part is, I can't reach his phone either. He always turn off his phone when going to sleep............. I was sad, heart broken and in despair. How could he do this to me. Just off like that? not even saying good bye, not even good night? wat the hell is this. Is he cold to me d? Doesn't care me like he did before? My feelings and my thought is no more important to him anymore is it? OMG T_T wat if...... wat if he was hypno by any china girls....... u know alot of these things happened in m'sia....... he IS in china leh...... the hotel even call him n ask whether he want massage service or not de leh~~!! AARRRRRGGGHHHH~~~~~ faint***

Then i see the silver lining of the cloud, an email from him. He said he can't online =.= In the end, he signed in with another account of his. He said it was hard to sign in, he tried many times d n finally success~ oh thank god.....

Oh~ wat's with this siao-ness, i really can be happily in the heaven n the next second i'm like falling to hell, the valley of despair. Wat a crazy lady... =.=""

2nd day..... Lonliness

2010-04-11T16:37:00.004+08:00

woke up quite late today, n the 1st thing i did was turn on my pc n sign in msn n went to brush my teeth. As usual, heat up my bread, a cup of milo, my breakfast. then, HE IS ON~ WOOHOO~~ sooooooo happy, chat with him until he off to do his things. He took all his luggage out to the conference hotel to find another hotel near the conference venue. The last one was near the airport, 1 hour taxi to the conference hotel, RMB 100 for it.

he off n do his thing in the conference then went out to find hotel, until 4 pm then on back. Felt so lonely that time, no mood to study no mood to do anything coz i'm stil very sad about that incident. i know he felt the same too but he just didn't say a word bout it.

He made some new frens, china ppl, very helpful n helped him find hotel together just now. So happy to hear that, hope he is going to enjoy the rest of the day n the whole trip happily. His place is raining whole day, can't really go much place today d.

it was a totally upset n hurting night...... i wonder if i should write it down....... that words he said.... cut through my heart, he never think that he is wrong....... blaming me of being like tat to him. Am i wrong to say i feel lonely without him? i get response of good night, n even i did ask him to read wat i wrote again he stil just say good night n sleep sweet sweet........ he made me felt being ignore...... is my feelings not important? plz reponse to my feeling, I can't do brain reading..... i felt like hell........ wat the hell is this...... i'm stupid enough to keep everything to myself telling noone. I'm human, having limit, keeping everything in my heart is heavy..... heavy enough for self- explosion......... n again..... i end up crying in my pillow for another night......

1st day without him

2010-04-11T16:20:00.004+08:00

yesterday early morning b4 7am i sent him to bus station for his bus to KL. It was super rush since we're a bit late when we finish prepare everything. After that i went back to home to clean up the mess i made (i took my laptop, extension, printer out of my room to print his invitation letter) then i stay awake though last night maybe only slept 3/4 hours, obviously, he slept less than i did since he wake up 1st n let me sleep til he is done.

i played fb until 8.15++ n went to Tesco. This is the 1st time i ever do shopping alone, but i feel that i'm more rational than with him around coz i don simply just buy things i want but not needed. With him with me, i tend to 撒娇~~ hehe but i til bought an amount of RM 85.35 for my everything that i need for the next few months. My cupboard was empty so i refilled it. Milo, Horlicks, Jacob's, nestum, bing bing mi guo x3, keropok, milk choc stick, apples, 100+ and tissue papers.... hmmmm it sure is a lot

time passes very slowly n i'm so not use to it, the phone did not ring for whole day coz he is not calling or sms me. No mod, so just studied a little bit. The time when i video call with him was the happiest time i had for the whole day. I was totally worry n sad. Worry that he is too cold there, did he manage his thing nicely? tomolo can find another hotel or not? did he drink enough water? hungry or not? got rest enough? ou~ i know he is big n tall enough to take care of himself but...... i just can't stop tat. I felt like i should have just gone there with him, i'm lonely n sad n so he is...... but i know, he can do it without, he is strong enough, though a lot of things had happened.

Dear~ i'll be with u no matter wat happened, no matter where u r. don forget to miss me ya~

Inhumanly busy life

2010-04-07T21:15:00.002+08:00

since i step into march, tests, assigns, reports were never ending. Until today, test is still going on and final is near. I haven start to revise, not even one subject. Yes, i did revise fo the tests, but for me, revision for test an final is different.

How different is different? For tests, i'll practice n write out a lo of stuff in waste paper; Final, i arrange n summarize all i think that is important NEATLY to nice A4 papers, so i can look up for it easier. Well, study weeks is just around the corner n my dear is leaving to China in 2 days, i think i'll be concentrate enough to revise. As i promised him, i'll try my best to get at least 3.80 for this sem but....... it think my physics won't let me do so~

Just gotta work hard for it~ Good luck n all the best to me~

我要过年！！！

2010-02-03T09:39:00.003+08:00

刚刚听了新年歌，想起了每一年回家过年的那超开心的心情。回家过年，是多么幸福的一件事啊！现在在求学的我，理所当然的，每一个新年都会有一个星期的假期。想想，以后出来做工了，就只有两三天的新年假......唉........

回家过年不是为了红包。当你已离开家里到外地去求学、上班，回家过年，红包根本不值得一提。因为当你回到家，真真享受的是团圆。回家和一家人过年，见回一大堆亲戚，多年不见的老友，那些感动，是言语无法形容的。

爱玩的我在想，也许我应该留一个新年在槟城过吧！但，一听到新年歌时........好想回家哦~ 每年在家的新年，虽然一如往常那样，都订好了哪一天要去拜访哪一户人家。但，真因为这一种‘一如往常’，在令人更想念。也许这也是一种家乡的感觉。

珍惜每一个回家过年的机会吧！能回就回，别说：我还有活动叻、我还有工作脱不了身、假期只有那几天而已。我说啊，长命功夫长命做，你要是要回，会没办法回吗？也许也有人说，回去拿到红包来也不够给飞机票啦！诶，别把新年看得那么肤浅好吗？满脑子只想着钱。当你有一天回不了家团圆，当有一天回家了，但他们都不在看了，还谈什么团什么圆啊?

我有两位朋友在俄罗斯读医，年三十晚、初一都还要上班，真的要回都难了...... 不知多久没见过他们了，每次假期都和我们本地的不同。

回家过年咯~！好好看一下身边的每一个人、尤其是家人哦! 祝大家新年快乐哦！

よい年お迎えるように~

a secret tat is never told...

2010-01-31T13:02:00.002+08:00

I believe everyone have their little secret in their deep down in their heart, not just u n me, but everyone around us. It could be an ugly truth, or a painful past, secretly admire somebody or even hate someone til wanna kill he/she, but they all similar in the same way, they r never out of the box, forever there, untold.

There r ppl in this world that think this way, I told my everything to u, i have no secret hide from u so u should too, tell me everything n hide no secret from me. For me, that's not really a way of friend. Noone should ever dig in ppl's heart n find out wat's in there, don go in step into other ppl's world as u like, u might hurt them in the end. Leave some space, a lil freedom for others. Even lovers might have a little something unrevealed.

There must be a reason y it is concealed, buried deep down in the 'heart crust'. If the day never comes, it will never come out of the darkness, not until the special someone is there to be told, not until the time comes.

wonder y i wrote this? it's a secret......

a secret makes a woman woman........

Emo-ness...

2010-01-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

Truly feel kinda down today.

After settle everything n came back from campus, I feel like I've lost track i my life n out of sync with the gang, not just the gang, I feel like i have nothing to talk to anyone n in the end squeeze something out to talk to them. Maybe u'll ask y force urself to do so? Well, i don like long silence when being with another person unless we r doing something, i just don like those kind of feeling, like no topic.

I start to have no idea wat they r talking about, outdated with what's going on around me. Feeling getting further n further away from them n hard to reach them with my strength. I'm trying my best to be with them but i keep doubting myself, it this right? m i being annoying? Maybe they don wanna talk with me, feel like a jerk, useless n not being helpful n might be hated by others.

This is not the 1st day I've been thinking like this, it just today have a heavier feeling about this, just today.Normally just like run through my min then it's gone, but today, it's like stuck in my head, not going anywhere.

I'm unsure of myself, n i'm always is, but not to seriously. Just today, more emo than usual.

the cause is unclear, maybe it's just me thinking too much, being socked by too many facts ......................or is it just because of the emotional few days in a month of a lady's cycle....

the day at Teluk Kumbar.....

2010-01-25T19:31:00.019+08:00

Someday just after the sem started, my bf found an interesting n possibly a nice place to relax. riding his little 'sheepy', it took almost half an hour (i think) to reach this place......teluk kumbar

From google map, it is a very loooooooooonnnngg bridge stretching out to the sea which was a jetty before and looks like we can have a little walk up there. But..... the 1st thing i saw when we reach there was this sign.....

Quite disappointed by the sign but when we saw the bridge condition, i don think we dare to walk on it even if the sign was not there. It looks like it's going to 'crumble' anytime, the planks were crack here n there, and u can see a the end of the bridge, it's really not meant to be walk on...... n the handle , i think it's all rusted. The bridge was 'abandoned' there lost it's role in the old days, still standing there hoping that once again back to it's happy days being walk around by ppl. Under the sun set, it looks lonely n n sad............

the bridge of the jetty

It was already evening when we reach there ad the sun was about to set. The beach itself is not as beautiful as i imagine b4 we go there, but it gives me a different kind of feeling just being there, looking around the beach, hand in hand strolling the beach with him.

and we started taking pictures here n there

The old jetty now is full with these nelayan's boat all along the beach (the beach is quite long though) and we still can see some of them r going out to fishing n we met a pak cik sewing fish net.

Pak cik was telling us that there's another beach at the other side, 'sana lah, sana boleh mandi, sini tak boleh, sana lebih bersih' . hmmm..... we're not there to 'mandi' though~~

This is actually the 1st time i ever see people sewing the fish net for real. I was thinking, i'm from somewhere like Tawau, a place tat is considered quite kampung compare to a place like penang n this is the 1st time i see this, what about those that grow up in the city like penang or KL.

There is not much ppl even know about this place but a outsider like us drive all the way there as to find a new place to play around. I don think local ppl will do something like this.......

waves washing the shore n my feet =.= after this pic my feet are wet....

I'm not sure wat is that man doing but i think is kinda like washing the net or something. on the spot i feel like he had a day of hard work n back to the shore cleaning up the things with his family welcoming him home, how warm is that............

enjoying the view of the sea~

There are many ppl in penang dig n wash for these fellows at beaches, I've seen many malays n even chinese digging for them in other beaches. Here, there's one chinese uncle washed out a pail of them........... I woner how long he had been this for that evening......

The sampans there are all being tied with rope, being pulled time over time as the waves hit against the sampan, n a naughty girl keep stepping on those ropes burying them into the sand~~

being caught in action~

The beach is not as beautiful as like Langkawi or else where but it gave me a different kind of experience n feeling. These scenes, i don think u can see it everyday if u r living in a big city. There's no water sports, no tourist everywhere, no selling souvenir or stuff, it's just a scene or simple life. Away from hustle n bustle of the city, just relax, searching back to the old, simple way of living.

Looking out to see boderless sea n sky, ur trouble, is nothing.

1st meeting with herng

2009-12-09T09:50:00.010+08:00

As all know, my way from penang going back to tawau will have to either transit at KL or KK and always have to wait at least 2 hours or so. This time transit at KK, and my flight was delayed 2 hours means i have to wait almost 5 hours instead of 3 hours. I should be unhappy or even angry about it coz airasia din send any notification to neither me nor my dad, well..... it turned out to be a good news though coz Da herng, a friend of mine in KK that i never met b4, he class was until 3.30pm. So if my flight was not delayed,i would have check in 3.30pm n fly off at 4.30pm already.

da herng~ actually the name is pey herng~

He came to airport to fetch me just after his class n w went to tanjung aru beach have a little walk n snack. We were waiting another fren that is coming to kk but in the end she couldn't come~

tanjung aru beach~ but it's not that clean

walking at the beach~ there is 3 beaches there, we walk quite long time n chatting all the way~ IT was our 1st meeting but we chat like we know each other quite a long time....hhmmmm.... maybe because we chat quite much in fb~ >.< time for mum mum~

yum yum~ abc~

then we went off to see tanjung aru beach resort~ very very nice place lol~

then I went back to airport n fly back luuu~~ thank u da herng~

the B!G parteeeyy~~

2009-12-08T09:44:00.027+08:00

I was really happy that it turned out to be good n I really hoped the 7 wonders did enjoy it. You know the kind of feeling? when you worked for something so hard for someone and when they say thank you to you, how wonderful is it? I felt like, everything is worth, no matter is the time i got upset, got mad or gone crazy. With frens' help I must say, is was a BIG success to me~! love ya all!!

This is where it all started, Harvest In~

we all got one sky juice b4 we order anything~ look zx is so happy with the water~ hohohohoho~

The dinner was nice

and a desert for everyone~ yum yum~

the 21st key cake

7 wonders~

'lipstick' for all bday babies~!!

present time~

n of course the special present~ hoho~

family pic~

ah~ H!

then~ we change place to bed~ din take pic of shop's front >.<

not everyone was here coz some din join us

we played KING game hoho~ hahaha love this pic, just look at chien >.<

cyrus kena d~ was ask to do pumping with mei ying sitting on him~ hoho~ chien was actually happy n enjoying this scene~~~!!

n there's all there is~ there isn't anymore~~ happy ending~

update...finally....

2009-12-08T09:40:00.001+08:00

i wonder wat should I start with 1st, coz there's just too much to write since i haven been updating for so long of a time....... well, let's see wat i can do then~

The 3 musketeers and the 2 engineers

2009-11-15T09:25:00.006+08:00

**This post is dedicated the the ppl helped me the most til today in the plan for the 7 wonders~

1st of all~ u can see put them into 2 parts, bu actually there is not a need to differentiate them but~ coz of the 3 got some cute, funny, n sexy name last night, so I decided to put it this way~ hehe~

2 ENGINEERS!! (named by me~ HOHOHO~~)
SWH stand for super white HIAO~~ just by this u'll know who is this person~ hahhahaah SHE proposed a change, a change which followed by a lot of conflict later, BUT I don mind at all coz it's a good and fair change n I supported it. SHE took the initiative to approach the 2nd engineer------ TBH and both agreed for the change. The change is supported by most of the ppl but minor rejected it, and the decision IS..... we follow the major with some adjustment with the minor.

TBH, i know this name is kinda lame, but i think i did a great job putting all his feature in this name >.< TBH------ Thin, Brilliant, Hiao~~~~ HE supported SWH's change which made me felt SO relieve n confident coz we had our 1st supporter from the other team and someone to handle a fearsome(to me) member of his team for me.

discussion and decision with the 2 engineers was the very beginning of the mission. Later, those below play a very important role.

THE 3 MUSKETEERS
They are not actually musketeer though~~ Behold and give a big round of applause to~~~

The sexy secretary!!!! HE is the 1st one that start opposing the point I suggested, but i like it, at least someone is starting to give some different ideas from a different point of view than mine. HE keep track with me, updates the situation n cleared me worries

THE gorgeous bazooka holder~~ HE is the 1st one that start discussion with me n made some decision with me too, then the decision was opposed by the SEXY SECRETARY, n we change the plan since we agree with the sexy one~ HOHOHO and we decided the 1st move with one of the SWH engineer to go for hunting~ HE had been the one that I told everything to since HE is at neutral stand and easily found online in my msn list~

THE dirty janitor~~ actually i felt pity for him for being named DIRTY JANITOR >.< (HE was named by the SEXY and the GORGEOUS)n I feel sorry, at the same time thankful to him. HE is the 1st ever person listening to me 'BARKS'. Frankly, I was really like a MAD woman when i was chatting with him, HE just listen n reply me calmly, but i dun actually know how HE felt being complain by me n it's non of his fault of wat I'm complaining. Quite innocent huh.....

3 of them and me had a fun and effective discussion last night and they helped me settle the list of soldiers to be under which of the 7 wonders, and the PDT (place, date, time) of the war and the KEY too. I was once MAD but chilled by them too >.< I really felt a lot better with them and I end up in non stop laughter in the end WHAHAHAA Truly, I am touched by them and so thankful, I even gave a 'heart' and ..... was it 3 or 4 'kisses' to them AHAHHAHAHA

I specially thanks to these ppl coz they solve a lot of prob with me n shared my worries. I'm very happy to have them beside me, not literally though~ hehe
THANK u all!! LOVE YA~

oh n last, a msg for the 7 wonders, I'm happy to prepare the whole thing for u all, and with all the help I received, I hope it would be a success and a memorable day for u all. I don't mind to get mad n carzy n troublesome with the plan, honestly, I can just get out of the mess n let everything be none of my business, but, i just can't let my friends down....

ONCE AGAIN, thank u for finishing this long~~~~~ post

wat ?!??!

2009-11-13T09:05:00.003+08:00

** this post is just how I felt n I think some people too felt it but didn't say it out, nothing offensive. This post points to no specific person, it's a representation. It's for everyone to think whether you are this kind of person or not.

Hai... you know what? Sometimes I just have to admit, I can't stand the way they make decision..... they drag n drag n drag then in the end nothing comes out n the whole plan will be gone, just like that. Nothing, just nothing. Well, i think i'm not the only one having this thought though...

When even someone is in charge, their reply too is S.L.O.W, you know what I mean? I mean SLOW, S....L.....O....W....... even if there IS discussion going on, the conclusion might be zero too. Of course I don't mean that everybody is like that, like a friend of mine, here's a story of the soldiers

some soldiers tend be aggressive, they lead n they strike forward n give a hand to the back to pull them up ahead like a sergeant. They take the 1st step and they let other soldiers make the best choice n go on with the mission. Some soldier they move on just behind the leader's back n answer duty's call n make decision fast, even if they got wrong, they'll learn from mistake. They might argue with the sergeant of diff opinion but at least tat shows they took the mission seriously. They have objectives n they go for it coz they wanna move on wit their own feet, not being carried by other teammates.

BUT, some soldiers, they drag...... even if the sergeant had done everything, i mean EVERYTHING for them just waiting for them to say yes or no n they'll just "i don know..... let me think about it" n forget about the matter n drag drag drag drag til the end it just pass like that, nothing is done.

Then some, they wanted everyone to pity them, care them, make them the main character in everybody's life, be with them but the case is , they never realize themselves did not do their part in the team. They will go disappear into the air n always not around n saying that "they just finish their lunch without me", 'they just do this n that without me'. It was them that you'll never see in the team, n they say you exclude them. And when they get injured in the war , they'll make themselves the hero/heroic in the tragedy, they want everyone, eeeevvveeerryyyOONNNEEEE to come n talk to them but they still don wanna stand up, keep lying there n enjoy being comforted. No matter how many times you ask the to stand up, u comfort them, they'll still lie there, thinking that they just gone through the worse thing that the other never experience n they tot they were being injured the most. They never knew that the others had WORSE than them b4 but they just recover n get up.

It's for me n you to think which soldier u really belongs to. Like my friend said, this is not pointing to one person but a group of ppl out there. You might have guess who are the sergeants or the followers or the 'draggers' or even the tragedy soldiers. It's fine, coz 'it's for me to know n it's for u to guess'

Nothing offensive, just wanna shout out what the hell I'm thinking at the moment
I'm not taking M-16 in my hand n shooting everyone or anyone around me, no bad intention here~

thank you for your patient for finishing this long post~

First Post!!

2009-11-12T14:10:00.001+08:00

Never tot that my first blog post will be posted at this kind of time =.=" I should be studying now but erm..... well just kinda feel like blogging suddenly dunno y..... inspired by some ppl i think well~ hope u'll enjoy my coming postS~ thanks for te support~

Remember to drop some comment lol~