Yuu's days　

1st class was amazing, rika sensei is very nice n approachable. She speaks japanese almost all the time in the class n i love it! but I stil can't really make myself to talk in japanese. My hear was beating so fast!! and after i ask her question it beats faster!!!! wow~! I know i got a lot of mistakes wen i speak in japanese coz i din really learn it from books, hmmmmmm maybe 80% is from watching anime for so many years~ hahhaha XD so those grammar thingy, i don really know. Of course, is there's a chance, I would like to learn bout 敬语 too~

we have to write blog and o presentation for the course. Blog~ good chance to make me update my blog more often and learn japanese too. Presentation........ i wonder what kind of topic should i do hmmmm..... think i should learn from sylvia, try to browse more website in japanese. Maybe changing my fb into japanese would be a good idea to start off with~!

Hope everyone would enjoy this lovely japanese class for the whole sem~! Oh, btw, everyone in the class is amazing! They all seems to be very friendly and fun, i have a feeling of this class is going to be great for the rest of the sem~~

This post was written because of a news i saw today. A guy committed suicide because of breaking up with a girl, leaving his father, beloved sister and friends behind. I read a lots of comments in his fb, some saying he is very 伟大, some say he is 傻, 蠢, n some say he is not worth to be pity.

为爱自杀真的那么伟大吗? I don't think so. Maybe you are really in love with this girl, making her ur life, the most important person in the world, everything of yours. BUT, your death only will make her suffer for life, for letting her to bear the guiltiness for the rest of her life. Do you think she'll be touched for the fact tat you die for her because you love her?

AND what about ur family? Those who love you since you were born and take care of you until now. For so many years they never give up on you. Now, you pay them with your death and leaving them eternal sadness and sorrow?

This post IS NOT to critics this guy, but is to ALL PEOPLE THAT THOUGHT OF COMMIT SUICIDE. There's no problem that cannot be solved, your death only will relieve your pain, your own pain. Those who left behind by you will have to clean your mess and the problem is left unsolved, in the end they are the one who suffer.

There was another news on a mother jumping down the building in front of her child who was crying and try to stop her. But, she still jump in the end. Now, what trauma will you think the child will undergo?

THIS is a super selfish act, i would rank it in the 1st place of the most selfish thing to do in the world. AND, it'll only cause yourself to suffer in the end. I'm a Buddhist, and what i know that is, those who commit suicide will not gain a next live, and you'll repeat this act everyday at the time u did it. 百善孝为先，自杀罪最重，自杀后的罪报更苦，要受反复自杀的痛苦，因为四恩未报（四恩指的是父母恩、师长恩、国家恩、众生恩），责任未了，即擅自轻生。I dunno what about Christian, but even not from the view of religion, commit suicide is still not the right ting to do.

There are so many people out there tat is trying so hard to live, to stay alive. They wish to live but they couldn't. (from love live)

Some might say I don have the right to critics other, or I don understand how they feel. everyone have their problem, i never talk bout it doesn't mean I never undergo something like that. I did something wrong and i know my family will be so angry tat they can kill me, an at that time i think i cannot be forgiven ad really tot of jumping down from a building. But i thought of my parents, i can imagine their face and tears when they get this news. Just like in drama, they sure will think that there's nothing cannot be solved as long as i'm alive.

No matter how hard is it now, it'll be over someday. There is always an end to all things, no matter good or bad. You just have to go through the bad and make the good come.

Hope everyone appreciate their own life and take care of those around you.