Yuu's days　

I believe everyone have their little secret in their deep down in their heart, not just u n me, but everyone around us. It could be an ugly truth, or a painful past, secretly admire somebody or even hate someone til wanna kill he/she, but they all similar in the same way, they r never out of the box, forever there, untold.

There r ppl in this world that think this way, I told my everything to u, i have no secret hide from u so u should too, tell me everything n hide no secret from me. For me, that's not really a way of friend. Noone should ever dig in ppl's heart n find out wat's in there, don go in step into other ppl's world as u like, u might hurt them in the end. Leave some space, a lil freedom for others. Even lovers might have a little something unrevealed.

There must be a reason y it is concealed, buried deep down in the 'heart crust'. If the day never comes, it will never come out of the darkness, not until the special someone is there to be told, not until the time comes.

wonder y i wrote this? it's a secret......

a secret makes a woman woman........

Truly feel kinda down today.

After settle everything n came back from campus, I feel like I've lost track i my life n out of sync with the gang, not just the gang, I feel like i have nothing to talk to anyone n in the end squeeze something out to talk to them. Maybe u'll ask y force urself to do so? Well, i don like long silence when being with another person unless we r doing something, i just don like those kind of feeling, like no topic.

I start to have no idea wat they r talking about, outdated with what's going on around me. Feeling getting further n further away from them n hard to reach them with my strength. I'm trying my best to be with them but i keep doubting myself, it this right? m i being annoying? Maybe they don wanna talk with me, feel like a jerk, useless n not being helpful n might be hated by others.

This is not the 1st day I've been thinking like this, it just today have a heavier feeling about this, just today.Normally just like run through my min then it's gone, but today, it's like stuck in my head, not going anywhere.

I'm unsure of myself, n i'm always is, but not to seriously. Just today, more emo than usual.

the cause is unclear, maybe it's just me thinking too much, being socked by too many facts ......................or is it just because of the emotional few days in a month of a lady's cycle....

Someday just after the sem started, my bf found an interesting n possibly a nice place to relax. riding his little 'sheepy', it took almost half an hour (i think) to reach this place......teluk kumbar

From google map, it is a very loooooooooonnnngg bridge stretching out to the sea which was a jetty before and looks like we can have a little walk up there. But..... the 1st thing i saw when we reach there was this sign.....

Quite disappointed by the sign but when we saw the bridge condition, i don think we dare to walk on it even if the sign was not there. It looks like it's going to 'crumble' anytime, the planks were crack here n there, and u can see a the end of the bridge, it's really not meant to be walk on...... n the handle , i think it's all rusted. The bridge was 'abandoned' there lost it's role in the old days, still standing there hoping that once again back to it's happy days being walk around by ppl. Under the sun set, it looks lonely n n sad............


The old jetty now is full with these nelayan's boat all along the beach (the beach is quite long though) and we still can see some of them r going out to fishing n we met a pak cik sewing fish net.


Pak cik was telling us that there's another beach at the other side, 'sana lah, sana boleh mandi, sini tak boleh, sana lebih bersih' . hmmm..... we're not there to 'mandi' though~~

This is actually the 1st time i ever see people sewing the fish net for real. I was thinking, i'm from somewhere like Tawau, a place tat is considered quite kampung compare to a place like penang n this is the 1st time i see this, what about those that grow up in the city like penang or KL.

There is not much ppl even know about this place but a outsider like us drive all the way there as to find a new place to play around. I don think local ppl will do something like this.......





I'm not sure wat is that man doing but i think is kinda like washing the net or something. on the spot i feel like he had a day of hard work n back to the shore cleaning up the things with his family welcoming him home, how warm is that............

The sampans there are all being tied with rope, being pulled time over time as the waves hit against the sampan, n a naughty girl keep stepping on those ropes burying them into the sand~~