Truly feel kinda down today.

After settle everything n came back from campus, I feel like I've lost track i my life n out of sync with the gang, not just the gang, I feel like i have nothing to talk to anyone n in the end squeeze something out to talk to them. Maybe u'll ask y force urself to do so? Well, i don like long silence when being with another person unless we r doing something, i just don like those kind of feeling, like no topic.

I start to have no idea wat they r talking about, outdated with what's going on around me. Feeling getting further n further away from them n hard to reach them with my strength. I'm trying my best to be with them but i keep doubting myself, it this right? m i being annoying? Maybe they don wanna talk with me, feel like a jerk, useless n not being helpful n might be hated by others.

This is not the 1st day I've been thinking like this, it just today have a heavier feeling about this, just today.Normally just like run through my min then it's gone, but today, it's like stuck in my head, not going anywhere.

I'm unsure of myself, n i'm always is, but not to seriously. Just today, more emo than usual.

the cause is unclear, maybe it's just me thinking too much, being socked by too many facts ......................or is it just because of the emotional few days in a month of a lady's cycle....