Yuu's days　

LAJ 300, japanese language level 3, something im looking forward since last sem. Since last sem timetable clash and there's nothing i can do bout it so i couldn't take it. This sem, I definitely gonna take it~! Wish to take 400 too but there's no more time for me~

Noone as the right to take any life away, not even your own.

Since a year i think, i haven't been to the pool and have a little fish time though i'm not as 'fishy' as SQ~ Me, mei ying, SQ and Gina went for swimming yesterday and i only can say is~ it's a SUPER GREAT DAY~! n with yeu chen as life guard, we truly enjoyed the time being there.

Had a kinda big fight with him n I was totally down. I couldn't understand how hard is it to just accompany me in the lab for 2 hours. It's night and there's noone except me an how can he feel nothing and just leave me there alone. Isn't tat accompanying girlfriend is kind of thing that very normal with couple? and it's night ok, night, where the whole school's lab is in total darkness and you are the only human in the whole damn place!

It's midnight, 12.30am n i'm still awake. Tomolo suppose to wake up early and got to lab b4 6am. Well, just feel like blog for awhile an move to my comfy bed to have a goo night sleep.

This is interesting and i'm actually looking forward to it very for it. I know it's going to be busy life but since i can be with everyone n i'm very happy with that.

This holiday is not going to be easy, i doubt if it is 'holiday'. FYP had marked the starting point n there are SOOOOOO may thesis and journal that i need to read. Since i'm under Prof. Lim here, life is not going to be easy with him(as he told us himself too). He said, if you r think u just wanna do some easy job n get an A or A- then u are definitely looking for the wrong person. He wants his student to learn more than just to complete the FYP to fulfill the 6 units.

Just finish my 2nd paper of the final exam but.......... wat is this feeling....?? I can do every single question except one of the 4% question. When I finish the paper I don feel happy at all, felt like, i had something didn't accomplished yet.

This always happens to all students i guess, not just me. U know u gotta study but just one day, one day to relax urself a bit to recharge ur tired heart so u can walk further. Not just in study, even daily life.

Today,i'm stil sick, but much more better after taking the medic bought from pharmacy. Some ppl ask me why not go to pusat kesihatan of the campus. I've been there few times d, everytime i get almost the same medicine. The way the give medic, i also know lah~ fever mah paracetamol lol, cough mah give the same orange coloured bottle liquid lol. I really doubt if they r really doing their job as a doctor. The only thing i see is like they just typing thing in pc then tell u, ok u can go to the pharmacy take ur medicine now, bye. Like that i rather go pharmacy buy some efficient medic then.

oh yeah~! today had sushi king RM 2 bonanza, super~!!

Today is his presentation day~ wishing him all da best~ muacks! i know u can do it oh my dear lao gong~! he said he'll find me in the noon in the conference n so i waited as usual~

Wei siang called and said he'll come my house to help shung chin to take the kft to photostat. He ask me y am I so down these few days (i posted a lot of emo status =.=) n i told him is coz of my dear. I told him th story in a very brielfly and he said : when someone ca influence ur emotion like that, now u're happy n the next moment u r down, means that he or she is very important to u, if not u won't feel anything. This is so true! haha

n waited util noon , I'm having headache since morning, I couldn't stand it d but i have to wait him..... i put my status as online n on my volume then have a nap. But, how could I just nap like that? I don wan when he online n i'm sleeping.... so practically, i din rest myself well..... looking a my roomie napping, hai..... so jealous n my head is aching like hell T_T

Then i felt something, my hands and legs...... the feeling of my skin.... ok, confirm d, this is fever.... don care lah, I don wanna miss my sisata hood outing tonight n i wanna say happy birthday to my dear at 12am~~!!
NIGHT IS HERE~~ woohoo~~ sistahood outing~ yeeehaa!
Eugene came to fetch me, then we r on our way to the lair aka transexiana house aka SQ house XD we wait for zx there then went to have dinner together~ Oh~ nice zhu char lol~ then went to B!G tesco for a little shopping n relieve our fully filled stomach haha everyone is full like crazy tat time.

Next stop, starbucks and is online time with my dear~ woohoo~! it's a super fun night, dear seems very happy too and those crazy sista XD super sensitive to camera, lots of poses n i must say.... looks at these camwhore~! HAHAHAHA XD but i love them! But.... 11.55pm starbucks off the electric n..... i couldn't wish my dear exactly on 12am.

SO~ we went back to the nesty and continue my online. He is just so sweet tonight, he's just like a kid doesn't wan to off n keep asking for few minutes more, oh~~ but i know he is very tired d. He showed a lots of pics he took today, they were SUPERB!! The colour are so vivid and the place is a beau! oh my~ i really want to be there with him one day~ The heaven on Earth, it sure is!

It was a great night, with him and the sisters~ (though there are 3 guys with us XD) if i can record all these, how great would it be. I'll jus have to record it with my eyes and brain for now.

Dear~ i love u and happy birthday! Wish u have a great year onwards. I'll be with u for ur next, next next, next next next, next next next next, next next next next next next next next next next next next next birtday as long as u let me to ^o^
love ya~

this morning he said he'll try to be more delicate n ask me to study harder...... hmmmm..... as i expected, no sorry from him. He is 大男人主义 type of guy, n this, know more than anyone. But, u know? The word 'sorry' do make ppl feel better. When u did something wrong, just say sorry wat i so hard about tat?

woke up quite late today, n the 1st thing i did was turn on my pc n sign in msn n went to brush my teeth. As usual, heat up my bread, a cup of milo, my breakfast. then, HE IS ON~ WOOHOO~~ sooooooo happy, chat with him until he off to do his things. He took all his luggage out to the conference hotel to find another hotel near the conference venue. The last one was near the airport, 1 hour taxi to the conference hotel, RMB 100 for it.

since i step into march, tests, assigns, reports were never ending. Until today, test is still going on and final is near. I haven start to revise, not even one subject. Yes, i did revise fo the tests, but for me, revision for test an final is different.

刚刚听了新年歌，想起了每一年回家过年的那超开心的心情。回家过年，是多么幸福的一件事啊！现在在求学的我，理所当然的，每一个新年都会有一个星期的假期。想想，以后出来做工了，就只有两三天的新年假......唉........

回家过年不是为了红包。当你已离开家里到外地去求学、上班，回家过年，红包根本不值得一提。因为当你回到家，真真享受的是团圆。回家和一家人过年，见回一大堆亲戚，多年不见的老友，那些感动，是言语无法形容的。

爱玩的我在想，也许我应该留一个新年在槟城过吧！但，一听到新年歌时........好想回家哦~ 每年在家的新年，虽然一如往常那样，都订好了哪一天要去拜访哪一户人家。但，真因为这一种‘一如往常’，在令人更想念。也许这也是一种家乡的感觉。

珍惜每一个回家过年的机会吧！能回就回，别说：我还有活动叻、我还有工作脱不了身、假期只有那几天而已。我说啊，长命功夫长命做，你要是要回，会没办法回吗？也许也有人说，回去拿到红包来也不够给飞机票啦！诶，别把新年看得那么肤浅好吗？满脑子只想着钱。当你有一天回不了家团圆，当有一天回家了，但他们都不在看了，还谈什么团什么圆啊?

我有两位朋友在俄罗斯读医，年三十晚、初一都还要上班， 真的要回都难了...... 不知多久没见过他们了，每次假期都和我们本地的不同。

I believe everyone have their little secret in their deep down in their heart, not just u n me, but everyone around us. It could be an ugly truth, or a painful past, secretly admire somebody or even hate someone til wanna kill he/she, but they all similar in the same way, they r never out of the box, forever there, untold.

There r ppl in this world that think this way, I told my everything to u, i have no secret hide from u so u should too, tell me everything n hide no secret from me. For me, that's not really a way of friend. Noone should ever dig in ppl's heart n find out wat's in there, don go in step into other ppl's world as u like, u might hurt them in the end. Leave some space, a lil freedom for others. Even lovers might have a little something unrevealed.

There must be a reason y it is concealed, buried deep down in the 'heart crust'. If the day never comes, it will never come out of the darkness, not until the special someone is there to be told, not until the time comes.

wonder y i wrote this? it's a secret......

a secret makes a woman woman........

Truly feel kinda down today.

After settle everything n came back from campus, I feel like I've lost track i my life n out of sync with the gang, not just the gang, I feel like i have nothing to talk to anyone n in the end squeeze something out to talk to them. Maybe u'll ask y force urself to do so? Well, i don like long silence when being with another person unless we r doing something, i just don like those kind of feeling, like no topic.

I start to have no idea wat they r talking about, outdated with what's going on around me. Feeling getting further n further away from them n hard to reach them with my strength. I'm trying my best to be with them but i keep doubting myself, it this right? m i being annoying? Maybe they don wanna talk with me, feel like a jerk, useless n not being helpful n might be hated by others.

This is not the 1st day I've been thinking like this, it just today have a heavier feeling about this, just today.Normally just like run through my min then it's gone, but today, it's like stuck in my head, not going anywhere.

I'm unsure of myself, n i'm always is, but not to seriously. Just today, more emo than usual.

the cause is unclear, maybe it's just me thinking too much, being socked by too many facts ......................or is it just because of the emotional few days in a month of a lady's cycle....

Someday just after the sem started, my bf found an interesting n possibly a nice place to relax. riding his little 'sheepy', it took almost half an hour (i think) to reach this place......teluk kumbar

From google map, it is a very loooooooooonnnngg bridge stretching out to the sea which was a jetty before and looks like we can have a little walk up there. But..... the 1st thing i saw when we reach there was this sign.....

Quite disappointed by the sign but when we saw the bridge condition, i don think we dare to walk on it even if the sign was not there. It looks like it's going to 'crumble' anytime, the planks were crack here n there, and u can see a the end of the bridge, it's really not meant to be walk on...... n the handle , i think it's all rusted. The bridge was 'abandoned' there lost it's role in the old days, still standing there hoping that once again back to it's happy days being walk around by ppl. Under the sun set, it looks lonely n n sad............


The old jetty now is full with these nelayan's boat all along the beach (the beach is quite long though) and we still can see some of them r going out to fishing n we met a pak cik sewing fish net.


Pak cik was telling us that there's another beach at the other side, 'sana lah, sana boleh mandi, sini tak boleh, sana lebih bersih' . hmmm..... we're not there to 'mandi' though~~

This is actually the 1st time i ever see people sewing the fish net for real. I was thinking, i'm from somewhere like Tawau, a place tat is considered quite kampung compare to a place like penang n this is the 1st time i see this, what about those that grow up in the city like penang or KL.

There is not much ppl even know about this place but a outsider like us drive all the way there as to find a new place to play around. I don think local ppl will do something like this.......





I'm not sure wat is that man doing but i think is kinda like washing the net or something. on the spot i feel like he had a day of hard work n back to the shore cleaning up the things with his family welcoming him home, how warm is that............

The sampans there are all being tied with rope, being pulled time over time as the waves hit against the sampan, n a naughty girl keep stepping on those ropes burying them into the sand~~